Monday, October 31, 2016

Getting Back to Even


Hello.

I don't know if there is anyone there...it's been a while since this was a consistent blog. No apologies. The last few years have been a crazy time and the more I practice the art of adulthood (and all the joys and tears that come with that crazy adventure) the more I've moved away from this space. Ironically, the crazier life got the more I needed to write. And so we now find ourselves coming full circle. Gosh, I've missed writing. Part of me is sad I do not have a more consistent journal of the past few years (because wouldn't that be interesting to review?). But again, no apologies.

I am learning to live without apology. Life is stressful enough without giving thought to what other people think. Don't get me wrong...I'm all about loving your neighbor and putting others first. But when it comes to your life choices... Absolutely be considerate of how your decisions affect others but never forget you are the one who has to live with the life you make.

I am learning about priorities. Is this not the hardest part of being a woman? The never ending juggle of balancing work and family and friends and school and our responsibilities to everyone and our dreams and ambitions and making sure everyone and everything gets the just the right slice of our time and attention they need. Setting priorities makes that act so very much easier. I am far from having figured it out but I'm starting to understand the necessary rhythmic dance we must learn to have and give and serve and be it all.

I have tried to say this blog was unnecessary, an easy thing to trim in the name of time management...the truth is, some outlets are necessary not to life but to sanity. And the time investment up front reaps compounded earnings to our emotional well being. Whatever your outlet may be...chocolate, time with friends, girls night out, hot baths, crafting, reading, working out or blogging...it's not selfish if it ultimately makes you a better person more capable or being who you need to be for the people in your life.

So here we go again. The goal is to post once a week. Four times a moth. Easy, right? Actually no. But part of learning balance and adulthood is learning to make time to accomplish goals. A completed goal, no matter how small,  makes me feel pretty much like I can conquer the world.

I'm forming a vision for this blog. Most posts will probably be quickly scribbled in the early morning hours while the house is still asleep so I promise imperfection. I want to talk with you about what I'm thinking. I want to talk to you about adulthood and womanhood and what I am discovering about this ever evolving identity. I want to talk to you about Jesus because his love is pretty amazing and I'm seeing him work in so many ways and that is enormously exciting. Occasionally I want to talk to you about style and projects and books and movies and food because they are things I enjoy and look back two paragraphs for the importance of the things we enjoy. I want to talk about social issues because those issues matter and we need to have those conversations free of argument and judgement. I want to talk to you about my family because they are pretty much my favorite people on the planet and I have some pretty darn cute little tiny siblings.

So hello to anyone who may be there and if I am just talking to a great dark void, hello great dark void. But to you, whomever you may be, I want to say thank you for sticking with me. Blogging is about writing and self expression and creative outlets but it is also about community and relationships that run deeper than 140 character social media posts. I appreciate so very much each and every one of you I have had the privilege to encounter over my blogging years.

Let's talk about what you are thinking, feeling, learning. I want to know what priorities you are making, what outlets contribute to your well being, how you are living without apology. I want to know what being a womam and adult means to you. I want to know what you are thinking about people and family and God and relationships. It's going to be real and I can't wait to get started.

xoxo,
Brianna